she

I wanted to kiss her then
thought she could heal me

I wanted her to want me
like that

do you know what love is like when you are so very small?

I still wish she'd come back and that I could be that girl

that I think I might have been for her

(I have always had a thing for blondes)

still falling

I am a stranger. I exist nowhere in my own mind. Do you know how you blink and you are no longer

seventeen

do you eat nothing now?

I never thought I would long
for pain

this is not realness this is numbness

h a v oc

falling

I wonder if this is everything I have been designed for
as my last  true fee ling
slips

I wonder if this is the edge of everything
is healing

forgetting

to feel anything

at all?